.Tuesday, May 4, 2010' 7:05 PM Y
I cut my wrist every night.
ok so today went sch to have history n emath paper don't think i did fucking well for it haha... also i'm lazy to link ppl so yin yin if u see this i'm sry about it too lazy.... maybe after mye than i will link u :D!!!!also miss oh was telling me to study n if i finish studying than sms her to tell her what i revise.... so i just send one sms to her but i haven't finish revise but who care la....i really have a feeling of just throwing my life away cuz things is starting again....i don't want to it to start again i don't want this to affect until my mood for o level i really try very hard to stop this feeling from affecting my mood for mye...i really don't know what to do now...nothings seen to matter to me now...i really feel so shitty now...have u heard of this songwhat do you want from me by adam lambert....that what i want to say to the fucking god!!!ya i believe in god but i don't want to be control by god yet it is still controlling my life....i can't control it can't avoid it no matter what my heart bleeding is inside it hurt a lot i don't know what to do to save it anymore....another song that suit the problembreaking apart by amasic....i don't know if it is going to continues or what so ever i got no more energy to care anymore....if u all are going to be blind in this be that way i going to my i don't care personality if u all continues to be like that....i'm going to a new person the i don't care shirleen but that depend on the person if u r still the person i know u will see the old shirleen....also dad can u just shut the fuck up cuz i don't think i would want to talk to u...also can u just don't say all that crap like what mum do firstly is mum now she stop n is u can u all just give a fucking break....i don't even know i can continues my life like that also i going to starve myself r u all happy u all would not need to see me the useless daughter u all have....oh ya i not even ur daughter any more since u all never treated me like one when i started in pri....so for what u say some much crap to me now when u can't change a thing now.....i cry alone i never cry in front of ppl easily i don't want ppl to pity me yet the emptiness inside me is eating me up....did u all know i was crying when i writing this my mind is not in the right mind to think anymore...i don't know if i can even smile 2moro to u all to show u all the fake me...when i was sad i went emo yet i say i was just tired n i wish u all to believe yet some part of me don't want....i don't know y but it is like that but i just don't want anyone to care about now since they all turn to a cold blooded n blind person now......i have enough of all the lies i do not know who to trust now....Labels: dieing inside.... fuck u all
Emogotchi
