.Thursday, May 27, 2010' 7:40 PM Y
I cut my wrist every night.
ok so today is finally the whole week of chinese mock exam is finish!!!
so sat need to go back and bang monday would my chinese 'O' level exam!!!!
wish i don't fail!!!!
and i don't want to!!!!
so is using my sister com cause she not at home and i want to watch videos!!!! haha....
long time never watch shane dawson video le.... n his grandma pass away around 4th may if i remember correctly.....
ok so watch one of the video was he is talking about his story in youtube....
like how he n his whole family got fire because of youtube video n he say something like just do what he want and than that how his story on youtube....
(well if u got a chances go watch it)
as well as he say he don't give a damn if ppl don't watch or hate him he is happy that he is able to have to do his own video or tv show haha....
and i been thinking of that after i see finish the video....
should i join the BNSS idol cause i seriously has no guts i have stage fright n i don't think i'm up to it...
but i wish i got the freaking guts to go up and sing plus the pass 3 or 2 years it was iffah the one representing fireblaze which i'm one too haha....
and i think she won for most of it.....
so i really don't know...
i really wish to just go try for it since it would be fun and i get to like fulfilling one of my wish.
i wish my friends would join too if i join.....
so i don't really know which to choose join or not join the BNSS idol...
also friends when i'm at k singing with you all....
i was not at my serious state n if i'm with my cousin i would as they would remark on me if i don't sing correctly.....
and you all may think hx is a better singer than me and well yes she is a good singer.
and just to let all of you know i was being crazy not the serious shirleen when i'm with my best friends!!!
so i don't sing good when i'm around them as they don't remark on my singing if i don't sing that good.
so ppl who see this please please please tell me what you think if i should join or not.
so that all :)
so saw faridj post on fb abt the BNSS idol which make me think i'm being a idiot for thinking of joining the BNSS idol.
he can sing welll n have guts....
but me none of those.....
haiz....
i'm going to ask my friends on sat if i should go if they say yes than i will try if no....
than forget about it since i don't think i would even stand a chances.....
:(
Labels: should i or should i not.....
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