.Sunday, February 7, 2010' 1:10 AM Y
I cut my wrist every night.
ok i donno y the injury in my heart still hurt... i really tried my best to hide it or jus put it behide me.... well i'm crying now my heart really hurt a lot n my family are jus outside the living room but they would care less if i'm crying or anything de.... also tong u said when i put dots it look emo will to said tat emo is wat i will become.... after i gradue from here i will start to go JC n work for money to go oversea n never ever come back anymore.... tis life is jus so wtf my life totally crash to pieces n was burn.... even if i'm smiling i donno when i'm really smiling... i rather be solo than having someone to hurt me again... everything is crashing down maybe u will said it is not a big or something like tat i would care less cuz i'm being the one wif a dumb heart n brain can't take it anymore.... i'm jus going to be as bitchy as u all n evil n how abt some two faces it might be a better option since u the one to start it first........ so i'm a freaking emo even if u going to said tat to me i'm not going to care cuz i'm going to go other country n start a new life even if i'm not going to be as happy as i'm going to be.... i will still be happy so to make u regret for doing tat.... n something else my family is the other cuz tat make me wan to get away.... do u ever know wat it feel like or how much it hurt to hear all tat.... i jus trying to do my best to make u all happy wif me by going out n staying out late..... but u thought the other way i was outside to have fun or wat.... ya i'm going out to have fun y cuz i don wan to face u all i'm like a freaking outcast at home.... but will u all know tat NO y cuz u all are bond whereas for me i'm jus like a extra in the family..... i'm always the odd one out plus i don even think i'm ur real daughter lo.... seriously even if u treat me good i'm jus like a freaking extra.... i don look like any of u.... it sux tat y i don like to go out wif u all it jus sux.... like ppl would always said tat sis look like my mum n bro look like dad but me.... they jus shut up.... i'm really tired of tat.... i really wish i was a kid without any family it would be better n sickness i'm the one who got everything... like asthma my eyes n even weak in my heart.... it jus sux like i'm a weak person.... it jus sux like hell.... n u wan know y i always use com.... i'm sick of facing u n listen to all tat.... tat all i'm going to said to u my family.... n those who i hate.... thx a lot i'm going to use tis hate to work my way out of my worst life.... i'm not going to let u all put me down but to using tat n win u all.... thx a lot....Labels: HEART BEEN CRYING BUT I AM NOT GOING TO LET TAT PUT ME DOWN......
Emogotchi
