.Tuesday, December 8, 2009' 12:08 AM Y
I cut my wrist every night.
so i'm not able to find a new blog skin i like sian lo.... then now my brain is like going crazy le lo.... wan know y cuz my mum lo n my family la... they are so damn fuck sia... first is my mum getting weirder n weirder la like jus now she treat me like a maid then later she ask me if i wan go genting wif her.... do i wan go yes but i say no wan know y cuz she going wif another old hag n my father yuck typing tat make me wan to vomit lo.... he don even care a shit abt the house de lo then still wan to nag at me nb cb lo damn fucker de la... so i'm not going genting le plus i go damn sian de lo plus go wif mum lose face de lo... wan know y i don go out wif mum cuz she jus out there to make me lose face don believe.... i don fucking care cuz real... then second is my sis she another weirdo like my mum but at least she don lose my face but she jus keep bully lo then if i don do something she ask or wat she give me face.... like wtf la but i jus don care or jus suppress the anger.... y i'm doing tis so tat i can still live in tis house cuz non of the thing i have now is my so i wan to grown up n earn my own money so tat i don need to see them or take all the shit they are giving me now.... also mum i wan to work didn't means i am poor is i wan money tat is my not urs n i'm not a children anymore i got brain ok even if i got cheat by some one... well jus now my mum scold me for forgetting a small thing tat she call me to like wtf la she already say small le ley do u think i will remember plus i help her then i now sneezing le lo then she like heck care fuck sia nb cb.... n i can't stop sneezing la sian sia.... then my bro is out to make fun of me like wtf la... i really donno who i can trust sia i know i can trust food but now i donno who is real who is fake i don even know if i'm real anot.... i'm always the invisible one in the family like when i'm in the need they will remember me but if i'm not i'm jus like a stranger or even passerby haha.... funny right i know cuz u maybe laughing at me for writing tis but see the ppl around u.... u will get it y i'm writing tis u may say i'm immature tat y i'm writing tis but if u really is mature u will think like me maybe.... any way i rather be a invisible person then a attention seeker y cuz attention seeker is a loser.... u maybe scolding me now but i would care less since no one think the same like me i donno y i think like tis but i jus know.... plus if u think the same like me in real life maybe tat is the fake me cuz i'm not the one u may see.... i donno y i'm writing tis or even saying i'm not myself but tat true sometime i may even be another person jus tat i don show tat side does not means i'm faking infront of u i jus don wan to be hurt anymore i know i'm real good in acting tat i can even lie without blinking.... u maybe scared of me after u read finish but jus to say one thing if u go throught wat i'm having u will jus become like me.... don say tat u will not cuz u will even if u think tat i'm jus talking crap cuz my mind is working the right way but jus go think abt it.... also food can we stop all the shit tat is going on now i don wan to take any more crap now i jus wan to have wat a normal person have jus a plain life even if it is boring i would wan it.... wat i'm saying now is truely from my heart i jus can't take any more so i jus have to write it out..... i may simle at u but is it a fake simle.... i donno neither....Labels: my true self..... my fake simle......
Emogotchi
