.Saturday, July 11, 2009' 9:31 PM Y
I cut my wrist every night.
well got piss off jus now cuz my bro n i think my life will go back the same when i think i finally come out of tat world but i didn't n it is jus another dream i have.y can't i get out of tat world maybe i never will get out or will i??? well tis is wat happen jus now..... while i was using my lappy to watch anime n i lock the room door cuz i don like my bro to disturb me.then while watching the anime some one bang on the door i didn't know who it is n was angry cuz for wat a person bang on the door can't they jus fucking knock the door gently.then i went to open the door n my bro was standing there so angry which i don even fucking know a thing of wat happen.next he jus scold me n say where is the spoon cuz my house have very few spoon so he was saying tat is the spoon inside all tis n is like shouting at me so i was so damn piss off.then i shout back saying i didn't take any spoon n the is nothing inside here such as bowl or anything.then i was so piss off then my dad spoke he say tat the spoon is outside here tat the table inside the bowl so i was so fucking piss off tat time cuz is he cock eye or his eyes got problem.then i jus shut the door n lock it then i could hear he close the door damn loud like wan to make spoil the door or trying to let me know something like tat.so i was so piss off n donno wat to do all i do is .......... so i was scared n i didn't wan to go out of the room n i'm so hungry now n the only food tat can be eat in the room is green tea only so i'm drinking it now so hungry but i can't do anything so wish my mum or sis come back so i would go out of the room.i have lot of quarrel wif my bro n family from the day i got bad n the quarrel is getting more n more i wish to stop it but i can't i jus don have tat heart to clam down when i chat to them or even speaking wif them is so difficult for me i donno y but i jus can't help myself from quarreling wif them.i jus can't i wan to know y i'm like tat maybe i think they don understand me i donno y i feel like tat but i wan to change even thought it is hard.but nvm i getting use to all tat quarreling i seen to have forgotten wat is family n wat tat for...
well jus now my bro jus ask me to eat like tat didn't happen donno really wan they are thinking.
Labels: piss off n feeling being blame for something i didn't do.....
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